Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle With the Enigmatic Pain of Cluster Headaches

It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I worked as a educator, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by rapid stabs, similar to lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

Cluster headaches typically start with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically begin with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, like several triggers, made things worse. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest bizarre remedies for what modern observers would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and disappearing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery which supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, researchers released the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they felt better.

In spite of such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent multiple operations before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her adult life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Short bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity.

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Emily Dickson
Emily Dickson

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